'Til we die...

Once again I'm going to try and blog regularly and once again I'll probably fail miserably. It's almost become a personal cliché for me to say that I want to start writing more and so I'm gonna start blogging to do so and blah, blah, blaaaaah... let's just see what happens. This'll be a fairly open post, I have no real structure planned and no real topic to discuss so I'm just going to vent. I've not done that in a long time and a lot of my best (read; favourite) past blogs have been done in this way.

Probably the best place to start is with my friends. I've spoken at great length and used many words in the past to explain my friendships, what people mean to me and how important they are to me, but really, it can't be said enough. I know a lot of people. I know a few people well. I have a fairly small group of close friends and I wouldn't exchange them for a second season of Firefly. I feel deeply, I don't know what it is about my psychology or physiology or upbringing or what that makes this so, but I do. I can't help it. I feel empathy hard and when the people I love hurt, or worse, when it seems like maybe I hurt or disappointed them I feel that hurt. It's hard to explain, it really is. I don't get myself, so I don't expect anyone else to get me, but there are people who do. Or at least come close. I hope they know that I'd take a bullet or more for them. And all they'd have to do is ask. Not that they'd need to.

What else? Work? It's often dangerous to talk about work on "social" sites, but that's only if you're being decidedly negative or abusive. I don't plan to be. I'm still in Sainsbury's, which is almost depressing. Team leader now, or "team leader in training" technically, and I actually enjoy it? I mean, I never wanted to be there this long, I didn't think I'd be there this long and I certainly hope I won't be there forever. I'm just glad I'm enjoying it at the moment. A lot of that has to do with people I work with, supermarkets aren't exactly known for their personality, but I kinda think Cameron Toll's a little different. I can't really tell if this is just because I experience it from the inside or not... the people are nice. Almost everyone and I definitely enjoy working with my fellow team leaders, all of which bring something different to the mix. I'm just glad I'm enjoying it more now than I possibly ever had.

I think I'm just going to try and get everything out in separate paragraphs in this one post. A sort of... welcome back? Welcome? If you don't like this maybe you should never read this blog again? That'll do.

I'm single. WHAT A SURPRISE. But it never really bothers me. I think people think it bothers me. And I have to say, yes. I like being in a relationship, I like having someone there. However it's never something I particularly pursue. If it happens, it happens. If I meet someone who likes me and I like them back... shiny. It's a thing that I'm sure will happen and will stick soon enough, because fuck you, I'm awesome.

I might end this here. I was going to talk about TV and films, but I'd rather leave that for another time. I hope you enjoyed, but if you didn't... well, I clearly didn't write it for you.

Later days.

xx